01 November 2006

I eat most of my meals alone because everyone else is running out of dining dollars. I watch a lot of movies alone in my room because everyone else wants to smoke up. I don't answer my door anymore because people just mooch off of me. I don't feel motivated about much, and it's an awful feeling. I'm sorry I don't have any insightful things to say on here, that's just not my thing. I'm lonely here, I hope I'm less lonely at home.

Someone told me they have feelings for me, and have for a long time. What am I supposed to say to that? It's not something you bring up in an online conversation. It's not something I should be expected to respond to. I'm in the middle of nowhere, in a pretty weird mental state, and the last thing I need is to think about romance. If you could call it that. I don't want people to think about me like that. Just because I'm single doesn't mean I'm available. I'm probably less available now than I was when I was in a relationship, if that makes sense.

You don't know what you got till it's gone.

P.S. I'm over common rooms and residential living. Get me to my house with my family already.
P.P.S. Word on the street is, I may be home in 15 days.


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