New TAL is really really sad, but really really necessary. I just wish that everyone listened to the show. I know that we would all be better people if we tuned in every week, right Oki?
Last night was rock bottom. I'm never going to get that low ever again. Ashley sent me this incredible letter about finding the good and the happy in everyone, and not focusing on the unhappiness. In the end, she says I'll be better for it. An old friend once told me that everyone is beautiful and everyone is perfect, you just have to see it. Another old friend told me that if you don't remember something in 10 years, it's probably not worth getting upset about. I wrote a song two years ago called "Don't Dwell", about not dwelling on the past. Maybe if I took our advice, I wouldn't be so down in the dumps.
I do know that Knox isn't it for me, and that I can be happier at another place. I'm looking at Cornell College, because Ashley seems to be having the experience that I'm looking for in a college. I could see myself really enjoying their curriculum, in addition to seeing that girl a lot more. It's not a cop out, it's just an idea.
I'm coming home in 10 days, which means that I have a lot of work between now and then. But I firmly believe I'll get it done to the best of my abilities.
To all my pen pals, if you want to write me, write me at my home address. If you don't have it, I'll get it to you a.s.a.p. No more mail to Knox College.