|Allie painting in her blankie via FanPop|
When Allie runs away from "not RyGo," she runs away in part because she isn't painting anymore. Because she has stopped being a part of herself that she knows to be true and whole. She runs away from her other self, to a version of herself that is free, and paints trees in nothing but a blanket, in a studio space that was built for her just by RyGo. God damn, do people get why I love The Notebook?
So here's what I'm getting at. I used to paint. I used to do performing arts. I used to keep my camera in my bag every single day. I used to doodle trees and watercolor portraits of my friends. I used to draw pastel sunsets and insist on carrying colored pens in my purse at all times. I am stifled, but really, stifling myself. I keep hoping that some RyGo (RyGo being a metaphor) will come along and give me a studio full of paints, and the time and space to sit around in nothing but a blanket painting trees and making me breakfast. But the truth of it is - I need to be my own RyGo. I need to make my space, find my time, and stop saying "I used to paint" or "I used to be a photographer" or "I wanted to be an actress". I just need to start making instead of making excuses.
So enough of this "I don't paint anymore" bull. It's time for me to stop wishing and start doing. Even if I start small, with sketching or doodling or painting reproductions, I just need to make it happen, and I need it to happen now, because Corporate America 9-5's (ahem, 8:30-5:30's) are sucking the creativity out of me.
|Dropping the Mic via College Humor|